baseball_furie

Fri, 09 Nov 2007 00:56:46 GMT

I'm moving soon, I don't know where but I want it to be warm. Thats all I have to say, I don't talk to any one any more and I feel content on keeping my solitude. I have a few places in my mind where I can go to that I can easily get a alright paying job. I hate it here and every day that I live here and stay here and piece of what is me gets taken away. Why the fuck can't people grow up? Why do so many people that I know have a such a fake persona and try to mask their soulless fucking bodies. I've seen if for years and years, I lived with some of them. They try to cover it up with something genuine but most people know whats up. Thats why there is this circle of friends, because most of them are so fucking fake that they have to portray what they read in a book or listen to in music, fuck you and go to hell. This whole fucking circle is sad and I've felt this way for a long time. I've come to realize that I get along with most normal people and I'm just really a dick to certain people. I'm content with this...

Fri, 02 Nov 2007 05:15:16 GMT

I really hate most people. But I digress I did go get candy and I got a shit ton. I'm making my room pimped the fucked out soon so that should be fun. Um what else, I feed the people at Spots work because I get bored and cook food. I'm done being sick and now I'm a DD for this rave coming up in NYC. I got a raise at work and I'm looking for a new car. Things are kind of looking up and for the better. Moving from Buffalo to here kinda fucked me up but I'm doing better.

Mon, 29 Oct 2007 12:30:40 GMT

To whom it may concern about the Halloween party.

I'm not sorry mother fuckers....
you give me goldshlaugher and I'll be a Dick. so the fuck what.

Tue, 23 Oct 2007 14:58:26 GMT

You know you tell some one something and you hope they can deal with it like a adult but we all know this person and they won't. You really need to sit there and re-evaluate you life if people are spreading rumors about you hooking for drugs, not to mention that they aren't shocked at the least about hearing these not true stories. So for all that it is worth no one really fucking cares.

Thu, 18 Oct 2007 22:01:43 GMT

I am a monster.
I don't know why I did what I did maybe the old person just comes out sometimes. I try very hard to not let it come out and do various shit to not let it come out. What are you suppose to do when every one is scared of this person and he walks all over people and physically hurts those weaker than him. What I just did made me no better than him but it had to be done. I lost money but all of my life I thought money was everything until I went to PDF and bonded and re bonded with some awesome people. I guess we all do shit that we all aren't proud of this is one of those things. I need a fucking drink.

Tue, 16 Oct 2007 23:37:14 GMT

note to self, when very attractive girls that come from all over the place want to give you birthday kisses you say thats okay and walk away, one of them may have mono and pass it to you

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 16:52:03 GMT

I'm having quite the sertonin crash right now and it's not pretty. I'm looking at the pictures that I took of PDF and I realize that I really didn't hold back what so ever. I'm kind of glad I went because missing this would suck. The Namn vets were awesome and herd it was my b-day and dumped a shit ton of liquor down my throat. I was fucked in a half for 4 days in a row. I didn't eat or sleep what so ever until the car ride home. My lungs feel like they got run over by a fucking steam roller and my head feels like it's been kicked around for that whole entire time. The Jamican camp was the best and where I spent the most of my time. I kind of ditched people while they were going to get something when 2 of them told me they had a b-day present for me. Yeah this was the best b-day and I really can't think I can top it until next year.

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 06:21:08 GMT

What can I say about PDF?

It was in my birthday and that was fun as all hell. As soon as I got there I some how made my way to the camp with all the Jamican girls. Well let me tell you something watching them dance entertained me all night those girls are fucking wild. Sunday night 2 of them came up to me and told me they had something to "show me." Yeah I had the best b-day of my fucking life at that place. I was fucked in a half in more ways than one. I met lots of pretty girls and made new friends. It's kind of difficult leaving and dealing with the real world but 4 days of chaos would do that to a person.

god bless Jamican women, thats all I have to say...

Tue, 02 Oct 2007 19:30:12 GMT

So I got offered a job in New Jersey, it's a cooking job and it pays a lot more. I just have to stick through it 'till December. Thats if I want to take this job, I have no clue if I want to or not and I have time to think about it. The assistant sous chef is leaving a Buccas in December and I got a offer.

Mon, 01 Oct 2007 01:06:06 GMT

Sun, 30 Sep 2007 12:37:23 GMT

Okay I bought my ticket for PDF but then last night a girl who I've had feelings for a very long time told me she wants me down in NYC during those days. Now I really don't know what to do because the way she made it sound. Why can't life just be simple...

Thu, 27 Sep 2007 22:50:08 GMT

went apple picking, we only got 6 fucking apples, "we had to lighten the load." It was still fun throwing apples and biting a apple once and just throwing it on the ground. I'm getting a second job just so I can get more money quicker. And yes it's called Fo'Castle Farms. I want to go back, I want to have my birthday at a corn maze. Any one who is down on a Monday or Tuesday afternoon evening it's all good with me. There is only 3 people maybe 4 going so far.

Sat, 22 Sep 2007 00:54:53 GMT

I've been happy living my secluded life, I don't do shit except work and play video games. I on the other hand went for a nice walk to Duncandognuts and the nice Puerto Rican lady gave me 2 dozen donuts for free. I guess she was closing and was just going to throw them out. Shit I was planning on buying them any way, why the hell not...

Thu, 20 Sep 2007 07:58:54 GMT

I can't sleep and when I can't sleep I think. I'm going to be 24 very soon, that is almost 30 years old. I don't want to be 30 thats old and when problems start to kick in. I know a few people whom I've known for years who are 30 now and have accomplished nothing with their lives. They sit home and play Warcraft and still hit on 15 year olds at their parties or get drunk and hit women. These people have done nothing with their lives and are content with it. How can some one be content living off lies and other people? How can you be that old and not have a steady stable job? Shouldn't you be starting to settle in at that age? I don't know...

Thu, 20 Sep 2007 05:05:44 GMT

I love this song.

Yo, what becomes of a dream differed?
That never makes it to the world to be seen or heard?
Do it breathe, do it got a heart beat?
Is it alive, do it live only to be a star in the sky?
I believe, scratch that, I know
This ain’t my full potential
Only using ten percent of my mental on instrumental
But incidentally my, energy heavenly
Can it be so ill, there ain’t no pill or remedy
The maker of memories posses the recipe to your fate
Make no mistake there no escaping your destiny
Especially wed ’till death do us part like wedding rings
I’ll be here forever, put that on everything

Tue, 18 Sep 2007 23:59:08 GMT

I love my pizzaslut pizza!!!!!

Tue, 18 Sep 2007 23:53:40 GMT

I just bought the new ninja turtles game. It got a 9.0 out of ten in most reviews. For some reason I just orderd a large cheese lovers pizza. "and if you put anchovies on that pizza..."

Mon, 17 Sep 2007 00:03:19 GMT

So I need to find a second job. I don't even know where I can tolerate working in the first place. Market Insights may work out just fine for the time being. I liked it there met some nice people and the all liked me because I used to work there. It would be a good temp job to have just so I can get my car shit all ready for november.

On the bright side I did find this nasty picture on the internet...

when you see that on some one, girl or guy, run the fuck away and don't look back. Because it's a nasty picture but you have to look at it any way.

Fri, 14 Sep 2007 20:53:06 GMT

Three hits of E, two 3's, a blunt, and 3 drinks. This will fuck you up....

DO IT!!!!

Fri, 07 Sep 2007 21:27:24 GMT

working six days a week is taking it's toll on me. I'm fucking exhausted. I need long and good sleep. Some one made plans with me then bailed on them with out telling me. I really hate people.

Fri, 07 Sep 2007 09:09:51 GMT

This song is on a children's album it's Johnny Cash.

It ALL began when they come took me from my home
And put me on Death Row,
a crime for which I am totally innocent, you know.

I began to warm and chill
To objects and their fields,
A ragged cup, a twisted mop
The face of Jesus in my soup
Those sinister dinner deals
The meal trolley's wicked wheels
A hooked bone rising from my food
All things either good or ungood.

And the mercy seat is waiting
And I think my head is burning
And in a way I'm yearning
To be done with all this weighing of the truth.
An eye for an eye
And a tooth for a tooth
And anyway I told the truth
And I'm not afraid to die.

I hear stories from the chamber
Christ was born into a manger
And like some ragged stranger
He died upon the cross
Might I say, it seems so fitting in its way
He was a carpenter by trade
Or at least that's what I'm told

My kill-hand's
tatooed E.V.I.L. across it's brother's fist
That filthy five! They did nothing to challenge or resist.

In Heaven His throne is made of gold
The ark of his Testament is stowed
A throne from which I'm told
All history does unfold.
It's made of wood and wire
And my body is on fire
And God is never far away.

Into the mercy seat I climb
My head is shaved, my head is wired
And like a moth that tries
To enter the bright eye
I go shuffling out of life
Just to hide in death awhile
And anyway I never lied.

And the mercy seat is waiting
And I think my head is burning
And in a way I'm yearning
To be done with all this weighing of the truth.
An eye for an eye
And a tooth for a tooth
And anyway I told the truth
And I'm not afraid to die.

And the mercy seat is burning
And I think my head is glowing
And in a way I'm hoping
To be done with all this twisting of the truth.
An eye for an eye
And a tooth for a tooth
And anyway there was no proof
And I'm not afraid to die.

And the mercy seat is glowing
And I think my head is smoking
And in a way I'm hoping
To be done with all these looks of disbelief.
A life for a life
And a truth for a truth
And I've got nothing left to lose
And I'm not afraid to die.

And the mercy seat is smoking
And I think my head is melting
And in a way that's helping
To be done with all this twisting of the truth
An eye for an eye
And a tooth for a tooth
And anyway I told the truth
But I'm afraid I told a lie.

Thu, 23 Aug 2007 13:44:31 GMT

Yeah I never update this thing any more. I do however not check my myspace that often and fail to read my e-mails. I live in South Glens Falls with a bunch of white trash. My soon to be wifes family. Let me tell you something about these people, her brother in law is 46 and he looks just like Carl from Aqua Teen Hunger Force, no fucking lie. He walks like him dresses like him and talks like him. Her sister is only 19 they have been married for 4 years. Thier mom works at Stewarts about 8 hours a week. Yeah I'm never there really. I gave the woman a ultimatium. Either be here by September or I'm leaving her. Maybe then I can indulge in waitresses at my work and move in with some co-workers. Maybe I should just do that anyway, but I'm stupid and want to get married. She wants me to go to Cali with her but the only way is if I had a 2 way ticket, flew first class and was intoxicated the whole time. Since I'm kind of broke and don't get drunk any more these possibilitys are impossible. Oh well maybe it's time to call it quits and live my life instead of living for some one else for once.

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 16:49:34 GMT

I've made my decision and I'm sticking with the Spanish model who loves me. It's not often that you have a model who wants to marry you and loves you and all that. We are talking about who is going to be in the wedding and it's going to be in January. I don't want to hear about I'm too young or what ever or it's a bad choice because I think it's a fine one. I'm getting older and this is good for me. All I really do now is work and sit at home any way it would be good to have some one to come home to every night and I know she won't fuck me over like other people did.

Thu, 19 Jul 2007 22:20:26 GMT

I've decided to keep this thing open for a few days. Any way I have a problem. I have 2 girls who like me alot one girl is a party girl who is a skank and has a kid, she has no asperations what so ever. But she is fun to be with in every way. The other girl is my current girlfriend? I don't know she is Spanish and I like Spanish women, shes smart in a way and she has her shit together. I want to start my life with someone and she wants the same. I just don't want to be tied down till October. I dont' know what in the fuck to do and it all sucks.

Wed, 20 Jun 2007 18:18:00 GMT

This fucking thing sucks all you people do is fucking bitch about other people. How about you all get a fucking life, like school or a fucking job instead of sitting on here every day looking for something that may offend you.